I've been reading a book by Jennie Allen called Restless: Because You Were Made For More. It's about living the life we were created to live. Jennie goes through a process of identifying the threads of our life and weaving them together. Those threads often involve pain and suffering. Since God is sovereign, He can use the good, bad and ugly for good. She uses the life of Joseph who was sold into slavery by his brothers as an example.
I have to say that when I look back over my life, there have been seasons of pain but also seasons of fun, love and joy.
Are there dreams still inside of me? What am I afraid of? There's much to ponder. Am I keeping the best inside my bucket and not letting it out?
I consider where I am today. A nurse who is working in a preschool. Now how did that happen? It's a long story but ...
I remember that:
- I felt very alone as a young child.
- I couldn't run and keep up with other children.
- I was born with a heart defect.
- I wanted to belong.
- I felt different.
- I didn't want to cause my parents to cry.
- I wanted to be held.
- I had so much love to share.
It makes sense that I became a cardiac nurse.
It makes sense that I love to work with little children.
I think of some of the dreams I held close to my heart. The dreams of having my own children that never materialized. But God brought me to this place in a way I never imagined or would choose for myself.
As I sweep the fallen crumbs from beneath the table after the children have their snack, I remember 1 Corinthians 10:31:
"Whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God."
I believe God can work all things for good and His glory. And so I surrender to His plan and seek His purpose.
I'm still in the process of looking at the threads of my life. I want to live out the dream God has for my life.
How about you? Can you look back and see some of your own threads? Are you daring to dream? Don't regret because of a need to do everything perfectly.
Blessings and love,