I'm joining in on this week's Faith Barista Jam. Bonnie gave us the following writing prompt:
"How is God calling you to become the Beloved?"
Even as a child, I had this hunger to be loved. In my young eyes, I was different. I was born with a congenital heart defect. I couldn't run and play with other children. I was sidelined in life because I couldn't keep up. I had to make frequent trips with my mom to the 'city'. That was what we Long Islanders called New York City. My doctors were located at New York's Columbia Presbyterian Hospital. My mom and I would sit for hours as we waited in the Clinic for my name to be called.
I was told I was special. And my parents told me I was loved. But Beloved? I didn't believe that.
I was always a dreamer. I guess sitting on the sidelines for the first seven years of my life allowed me plenty of time to day dream. I dreamed of my wedding. I dreamed of walking down the aisle to my Beloved.
Many years have gone by since I was a child. I am a very healthy adult. Thankfully, my open heart surgery at the age of seven was a success. I made up for lost time by my determination to keep up with the other children to prove I wasn't odd or different.
But beloved? Am I becoming the Beloved of God?
You see my life has had lots of ups and downs. My husband of 28 years loves me. My family loves me. But life hasn't always been easy or fun. There have been many challenging times.
As a beloved of God, would that happen?
What I've discovered over the years of my faith journey is that I can know the Truth. I go to the Truth; the Word of God; the Bible. My emotions don't always feel what the Truth says. But I still believe it and it seems that over time it is proved right to me.
As I grow in my love for Jesus, He shows me that I am His beloved. He holds me when I need comfort. He provides friends to walk alongside of me just when I need them. He provides what I need but not always all I want. He knows what's best for me. That's my Beloved.
Song of Solomon 2:16 says what I need to hear:
Blessings and love,