I was getting pretty down on myself the other day. Have you ever had one of those days? I didn't feel like doing anything or going anywhere. Notice how I wrote feel. I've been one who often says 'just do it and the feeling will follow'. I think I learned that from one of the motivational tapes I used to listen to years ago. (Thanks Zig Ziglar and Tony Robbins.) But on this day I couldn't even manage to do what I needed to do so I could allow that feeling to follow. It just wasn't happening.
My husband noticed that I didn't seem like my normal self. Greg knows me so well and he's good at asking me probing questions to get to the bottom of it. I answered with all those little things that were bothering me. But he knew that wasn't the real crux of the matter.
I was having a hard time finishing my book.
I began writing my book last summer. I'd just finished reading Sarah Mae's How to Market and Sell Your eBook on my plane trip back to Phoenix from Florida. Sarah Mae sold over 25,000 copies of her eBook 31 Days to Clean: Having a Martha House the Mary Way in two months! Can you believe it? And I'd just finished reading how she did it. I knew I could do it.
I've been editing and rewriting a lot lately. I realized I'd been feeling a bit insecure. After all, who am I? I've never written a book. Sure I journaled for years and years but that's different. I read tons of blogs. And I read many books. The popular authors seem to write totally different from my style. Without realizing it, I'd changed some of my writing style to be more in sync with what people seemed to like. I gave my husband one of the chapters to read and Greg knew right away. He told me I had stopped writing from my heart. We talked for some time about this and I felt so much better. I am not an Ann Voscamp or a Margaret Feinberg. I am Debbie and I just need to share what God has placed on my heart. I'll trust Him with the results.
The next morning I awakened very early and began writing. It just seemed to flow so easily. And what I was writing came from my heart; Debbie's heart.
I was so excited so I wrote the following on my Facebook profile page:
How thankful I am to my husband Greg Petras. I was frustrated with the progress of my book. He read parts of it and told me I had stopped writing from my heart. I realized I was trying to be more like popular writers instead of being myself. I may not sell tons of books but I must be true to myself and share the stories with others with the gift God gave me. This morning I've already written almost 2,000 words.
Suddenly and right before my eyes likes and words of encouragement began to appear. I was amazed! Friends from work, family, childhood friends, relatives from Norway wrote comments to encourage me. My heart was overflowing with gratefulness. And they kept on coming...
I learned so much from all of this. If you've started something but feel discouraged, don't quit! I found this quote on Pinterest that fit the situation so well.
I started to write because I believed God gave me a message to share with others. And I will not quit!
Now I'll have to leave you as I need to continue writing my book.
Blessings and love,